Stupidity

Jan 05/03 - 9:16 pm

I guess I don't ever really learn from my mistakes...not really.

I vowed that I was moving on from the fake friends and melodrama surrounding highschool and yet I still find myself gravitating towards these tendencies.

I don't go in search of the negativity, but somehow I often find it thrust upon me. I don't believe myself to be entirely innocent, but I was perfectly happy moving on, making new college friends, and keeping in contact with very few people from highschool.

Then something happens, generally someone begins a rumour, or stumble/throws themselves into my life, and therefore, disorienting my existance.

I'm trying to move on, and keep to myself. So why is that so hard?

Anyways, today I did something potentially stupid. Daelin called me on Christmas Eve, and today, at Jasper's prodding, I returned his call. It went fairly well. We spoke for about a half hour about mudane things, such as school, and moving out.

When I got off, I told him that he could call me again if he wanted. And so, in a way I was encouraging further attempts at conversation.

I don't know him anymore, and I am perhaps inviting more negativity. Time will reveal the truth.

I am truly stupid, or just faking it.

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